So here I
am, right under God’s spotlight, with the little courage I have, echoing the
very words that David stated in Psalms 139:23-24;
Search
me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See
if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Let me
tell you the truth, to ask God to search you is to bring light into what was
once an area covered in darkness. Your behaviors, patterns, lifestyle of
fallacies and all your humanity collide with God’s divinity to reset factory
settings of God’s original version of you.
Did
someone ever mention that being bold can be peculiar? Truly speaking, I feel it
is. When God is getting ready to make changes in your life, expect Him to go
deeper. He does not operate on the surface, but rather starts right at the core
coming out. He always wants to do something deeper. To build a formidable
exterior so as to harbor inside senseless fear is futile, because God had an
original idea of you in mind and desires that you live it out purposefully. When
your bad meets His good and your fake meets His real, the goodness dims every
fallacy pertaining to your life. So if you think stepping up and standing out
as your original and intended godly you is costing you a whole lot than what
you expected, friend, BE BOLD ANYWAY!
This past
Easter I was reminded of the importance of this season by a sermon I listened
to my Daddy preach; that Easter is about a divine exchange. You give Him who
and what you are for who and what He designed you to be. A few questions challenged
me to evaluate myself; you could take some time and answer them too;
1. Who am I
right now?
2. Where am
I right now?
3. What am I
searching for on the real?
4. Where am
I/have I been going to find it?
You know
what I figured? That God is interested in your self-awareness. He
wants you to be true to who you are and what you feel at all times. But beyond
that, He desires to be the one that you allow to meet your real need which is
indicated by the thoughts and feelings you experience. Not just for now, but
for forever. But in order for Him to do so, He has to address the area in which
He is working on, to see if you acknowledge that it exists. It is a
partnership.
To become
His original idea of you requires you to be connected to His power, presence
and authority. It is in partnering with God that we are able to have victory
over real areas of struggle and weakness. Mine has been the fear to step out
and be different! I have always known I am from when I was young, but loathed
it due to the pressure of perfection that came with it. But then, somewhere
along the line, I found myself like the woman at the well trying to fill a void
with resources rather than accepting real source. Interestingly, God had His eye
on me all the while. He knew I would fight being different and still believed I
could be myself and thrive at it on His terms. So I took a chance on Him for
myself!
I know I
will probably not be victorious every day, guaranteed, but I am knowledgeable of
the fact and confident in the truth that there is a well that never runs dry. I
can enjoy the overflowing supply from the source of “everything I need for a
godly life through my knowledge of him who called me by his own glory and
goodness” (2 Peter 1:3). Boldness is costly. And so is becoming God’s original
idea of you. Exterior supports may temporarily sustain, but only inward character
creates courage.
So here
is a truth I derived from a lie; you cannot be authentically you and
thrive at it all by yourself. It is the permission to have the power of God
work within you that will see you prosper at being you, the godly way. And by
the way you can be both bold and godly.
Co-operate with God, you will see the fruits eventually. I challenge you today,
even as I myself maneuver tactfully through this kind of living that is daily
revealing the benefits of being yourself
unapologetically; let God invade the spaces that you know have been
occupied by resources that constantly leave you thirsty for more. Live in
moment-by-moment interaction with Jesus.
Allow God to be God on His terms. Give Him
time (be patient) and room (open residence). You will eventually look back and
see how you have been enjoying the benefits of letting Him rule and reign as He
rightfully should.
Wow, powerful . I dive in. I need this too. Thanks for sharing
ReplyDeleteThis is deep stuff Namwano.Food for thought and alot of searching for the new month and those to come.
ReplyDeleteAsante sana.You are a blessing
You have nailed it Nash. This is what Christian maturity is all about.
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