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DEAD, YET STILL ALIVE

Image Courtesy of gettyimages.co.uk The invisibility of my sin to the human eye doesn’t make me a saint. Being born and bred in a Christian home does not automatically have a preacher’s kid operate as holier than anyone else is; you know like scripture quoting, tongue speaking and may be (just maybe) demon chasing. We do not exist in a sin free bubble. Allow me to let you in on the reality that just like you, our battle with sin is constant. Probably even worse for us because the enemy is not impressed with one big happy Christian family. I will speak for myself and maybe a few more who may read this and identify with the struggle. Over time we simply create schemes to deal with our fallen nature if not feed the sin. For instance many at times, given that majority expect me to uphold the virtues of Christianity, if for one reason or the other I find myself in sin, or in a continuous cycle of engaging in it, I may bury it rather than confess it. I mean what people don’

FAULT LINES OF ABUNDANCE

I find some prayers in the Bible to be very risky sometimes. There is a scripture that I have over the months of this year come to make as a personal prayer; “Search me Oh God and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there be any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.” (Psalm 139:23-24) It may be heartfelt when I say it, but some recognizable pride manages to keep me from dethroning myself and having God take center stage of my life. (Grace is sufficient though, says that little voice that attempts to quiet my soul). We have come to understand insecurity as an aspect of life intended to warn us that we are vulnerable to some kind of danger. But there is a kind of insecurity that is internal. We are constantly living in fear of things like failure, rejection, inferiority and lonesomeness. It is a state in which our lack of confidence is looming more than our faith. We always feel “small” and “incapable”. But I guess it all boils down to