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I find some prayers in the Bible to be very risky sometimes. There is a scripture that I have over the months of this year come to make as a personal prayer; “Search me Oh God and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there be any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.” (Psalm 139:23-24) It may be heartfelt when I say it, but some recognizable pride manages to keep me from dethroning myself and having God take center stage of my life. (Grace is sufficient though, says that little voice that attempts to quiet my soul). We have come to understand insecurity as an aspect of life intended to warn us that we are vulnerable to some kind of danger. But there is a kind of insecurity that is internal. We are constantly living in fear of things like failure, rejection, inferiority and lonesomeness. It is a state in which our lack of confidence is looming more than our faith. We always feel “small” and “incapable”. But I guess it all boils down to

Photography by: Emmanuel 'Walker' Shichende In the previous blog post, I asked a question that in my opinion determines a whole lot when it comes to self-knowledge, self-awareness and the impact it can and will eventually have not just on others but on you. If you missed it, kindly check it out here before proceeding. Among my biggest ruins in life, was choosing to blend in with neutral crowds to figure out who I really was. Crowds whose principles and values were far different from my own. In a bid to feed my hunger to belong especially as a pastor’s kid, I easily but foolishly compromised myself and my morals for the people around me. In the process I accommodated wrong friendships that eventually side-tracked me from authentically being me. I did get the acceptance but was never quite satisfied with the person that I had become. There seemed to be some code language that every clique had. The only reason I felt this way, was because the person I thought i